chicken

My video watch trail over the last couple days included these.

This channel has loads of cool stuff.

One of my favorites, wanted to see if it's still there. Wound up camping in her channel for about 30 minutes.

And of course, after purposely looking around for any kind of proof that Mandela died and the world mourned, this vid super glitched into oblivion right out of my editor. I had to put it back in again. I remember his death announcement and thought he was dead for years, too. Personally, I think it was actually announced, but may not have been true. This happens frequently nowadays. I just know I didn't misremember.

https://www.timeslive.co.za/news/south-africa/2019-11-06-hundreds-remember-nelson-mandela-dying-in-the-1980s-inside-the-mandela-effect/ 

Mood.

Ha, more mood.

Yum! Wanna try this.

Srsly trying to do this.

This. Might be worth your time.

So I'll be 60 in about 47 days, and I'm not even sure what's going on here. This is unfiltered, no makeup, and I have no explanation. Except somewhere on another blog I told the story about how I had been so depressingly ill for so long (years) and it had affected my whole body and spirit so negatively that I wept for weeks and months on end. I couldn't even put on my own shoes and socks and do things around the house, and Scott kept unwearyingly taking care of me, the house, the shopping, the bills, the kids, just everything, and I could see him biting back how unfair it was on top of his 10 hour job and going bankrupt and nothing going as planned, and meds puffed me up the scale and I got gross... And one day I very sincerely begged God that if nothing else changed, please at least make Scott happy to see my face when he came home from work every day, because it had gotten so draining that he stopped looking at me, even though he was still taking care of me and everything else without complaint. I needed him to see me so I'd know we were ok.

Prayers work, but you need to think them through and have a legit reason for what you ask for. Prayers are not frivolous, but they are very real. I'm telling you guys this because some of you are having a hard time and need hope. Take some time out and really think about what it is you want most IN THIS LIFE. If what you want lines up with why our souls are here in the first place, pulling that together in your mind during some thoughtful quiet time sifting all the other crap out of the way and then focusing on that in a nonselfish way and taking it to God in prayer will be your blessing. It's really important that you sift everything down to what is the most real desire you have. My most sincere desire was that Scott would have a reason to want to keep coming home to me. My most miserable thought was how miserable I was making him, and I didn't know how to fix that.

God cares that we are sad, confused, and miserable, but our job here is to use these experiences to burn the chaff away and find the gold. Find what you need in your soul and take that to God, or whatever you call the source creator that existence seems to spring from.

Anyway, I'm way better now, if you are a first time reader and don't know. And thankfully, Scott stuck through it all with me and now we smile and laugh a lot.

In other news, our AC will be installed Thursday and Friday this week if all goes well, and once that's in, the new roof comes next, not sure when. Finally. Months of waiting, mostly on world shipping problems. At Scott's work they can't get certain logs of tape in any more, and I'm hearing that a variety of plastics are going into shortages. The world is changing, guys, big time. We'll adapt and get used to going back to slower and healthier ways of doing everything and stop clogging up our oceans.

I've been practicing eating less because if food shortages really happen, I want to be used to lean times so I won't be a whiny baby about it. 😄 You wouldn't believe how much stuff you can cook in a slow cooker, btw. I even crisped up the skin on a chicken. I'm enjoying chicken in particular because I keep having dreams about severe chicken shortages. Watch them announce huge flock kills now trying to stay ahead of something crazy viral, like another avian flu or something. Seriously, I'm expecting it because whatever is going on, it's like someone is fighting over the world food supply, and if you have never researched who owns the world food supply, now's your chance to go start looking things up before the internet gets wiped.

I'd like to say I'm joking, but I'm not joking. It may not be on the 'news', but food production and shipping have been going haywire ever since covid started, which we know is a real time world simulation preparing us for NWO, except it keeps being interrupted by a certain group of white hats meddling with taking over the timeline. 😶

Buy chicken while you can.

something about Italian chili

 

I've decided the way I eat spaghetti nowadays is more like Italian chili. I make it from scratch, cook down a big sweet onion and dump in a bunch of fresh chopped tomatoes to simmer for awhile, add garlic, oregano, basil, and a little salt, not much. Once that's all stewed down I dump in a medium can of tomato sauce, then stir in a pile of precooked hamburger. After I ladle that into a bowl I melt yummy cheese over the top of it, and it's so good that I don't need any pasta at all.

I'm filling out a questionnaire for a yearly physical that I have next week, and my answers are drastically changed from last year. There is so much overall improvement that I can very clearly see how important it was correcting a vitamin D deficiency. I started that a year ago. I've been able to handle doing things this summer that I haven't been able to handle in over a decade. No other change besides a blood pressure med adjustment and the addition of coQ10. Amazing. And the best part is in this entire covid mess, I haven't been sick. The worst of my problems the entire time was seasonal allergies, and even those have improved so much that I stopped taking antihistamines months ago.

These glasses are being ridiculous today.

Scott ran off to a cookout, so I watched a Christmas movie. Still no AC, so it was nice seeing snow.

I know, I know, nothing about my life in Texas, and now all you get is this boring stuff.  😂 

Laterz.

really

Me on another planet last month.

All righty, then, wassup? I felt so organized yesterday writing some stuff out, today I'm all over the place unable to settle after watching The Capture of the Green River Killer, which I wanna review asap but can't seem to focus any more today. The movie was really good, although really long because it was a 2-parter, but by the time it was done my anxiety was sky high because it constantly triggered my friend's murder. Got really good screencaps, though.

Really. Lotta reallys in that paragraph.

Part of the time problem involved my house still being sans AC, as in it still hasn't been replaced yet. Most of the summer, no AC in this house. When I got home from Texas, this house was nearly 90 degrees on the inside. I probably mentioned before I left weeks ago that I was camping out in my bedroom with a window unit. Well, that's just dang boring, so this morning was cool enough to open all the windows and chill down to 70 in the house, ideal for hanging out on my couch with a movie. Except I didn't know the movie was 2 parts, and by the time I got done with it, with all my extra pausing and jumping up to do things, it was nearly 80 degrees inside the house with the windows open and I was very uncomfortable. I'm sure that didn't help the antsy anxiety I couldn't seem to hold off.

So now I'm all brainless camping out back in my bedroom with the window unit and loathing the idea of getting a nap after a nightmare just before I woke up this morning about being shot and very very angry and having to drive myself toward a hospital during a car chase. Not a clue where that even came from. I didn't have any nightmares like that the whole time I was in Texas, which was 26 days. No idea why Missouri is the nightmare state.

I did lose 7 pounds there, though, which is proof it's possible, so now that I've got a new behavior model for that, I'm attempting to keep it in place here to see if that can continue, so basically mimic round the clock baby care... 😂 I walked the floor a lot holding the weight of a bowling ball in my arms, and I was on baby shift every 3-4 hours trading off, accidentally skipping meals, so even though I ate all the ice cream I wanted, I LOST 7 POUNDS. That threw my ice cream law right out the window. I did, however, take my vitamins religiously every single day, and I made sure I was getting plenty of protein and water. I don't dare slide back into complacency back at home now. I've been doing spontaneous walking loops around the house as if it were baby time, keeping it short because it's hot out there and then ducking back in my room to pilfer around picking up stuff. Got nearly all my stuff unpacked, washed up, organized, drawers rearranged.

I also barely got any coffee in Texas. My Batman gets hives around coffee grounds, so I drank one cup of weak instant coffee every morning before he got up for school, and I say weak because I like strong coffee and found out you don't just double instant coffee without serious caffeine nausea kicking back. Came back home to strong coffee and about made myself sick, so I think I'll be quite happy with a quarter cup, like a few sips and then just get on with my day. I bravely fought to keep drinking coffee but after that nightmare this morning (I fell back asleep after my early morning coffee), I really need to let that humorous addiction go. That was not a pleasant way to wake back up again. Heart Attacks for Dummies, 101.

While I was in Texas I saw the Lego and Lego Batman movies umpteen times, so the Everything Is Awesome song is in my head like a big, bad earworm. They were really cute movies, but I'm afraid it completely changed my world view and now I'm indoctrinated beyond saving. Admit it, Superman could never have pulled off as cool a lego movie as Batman...

I also took my season one The Flash and indoctrinated them right back, and it was super awesome watching newbies flip flopping through every episode trying to figure out the Dr. Wells angle. It was all I could do not to blurt anything, totally brought back memories from the live tweet days when the entire world was flip flopping on twitter the first time we all saw the very first season.

I would post awesomely cute baby pix, but so many weird strangers seem to have access to my unlisted phone number somehow (what are the odds that 30 different publishing agencies across the nation and Canada would have my phone number but no one else does?) that I think it prudent to just skip to the song.