Pink Feldspar: oh yeah, THAT pill

Sorry, looking through really old posts trying to find when was the last time I mentioned trazadone. Got a little distracted.

This was facebook around that same time.

Anyway, finally found it, goes back to 2013. This first link is actually after that second link, but it's the one I literally wrote "trazadone", even though the second one was when I was actually writing while I was suffering on it.

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So I saw my primary Friday for follow up on the heart monitor from last month, which turned out my usual and nothing flagged, and I brought up that I figured out everything was boiling down to nightmare disorder (that's a real thing), which originally had my psychologist sending me back into sleep study in 2016 and CPAP has been awesome, but seems to have returned with a real vengeance this year and I think it's because I had spent last fall titrating back off xanax and off 5 years of gabapentin, which apparently covered for that by helping me sleep through the night and now that cushion is gone, right. And then I told her I had reached out to psychiatrist, who I haven't contacted since last year and she's still only taking video calls, which I find unacceptable, and she's leaving this practice next month anyway, so what to do because I'm pretty done with anyone else for now. So primary suggested trazadone because it's commonly used as a sleep aid for anxiety, and even though that rang a faint alarm bell, I couldn't remember details and said ok.

Worst. Headache. Ever.

And that is when I remembered that second link up there. The reason I wrote that particular blog post is because I was hanging on through a day of babysitting during the worst med reaction headache I'd ever had in my life, and then the next post was about my first documented euphoric episode and I wrote down that med that kicked off that nasty headache.

And the very interesting thing about it now is it is totally reminding me of the struggle I had all last fall with the face pain making CPAP impossible and it didn't stop till I quite zyrtec cold turkey, so apparently trazadone and zyrtec greatly affect and impact my ethmoid and other sinuses and particularly the cranial nerves coming around my face, and this is feeling like the worst full blown sinus pain ever from my forehead to my teeth to my ears feeling ice pick stabby, my nose literally puffed up and turned a little pink and it even hurts to just lightly touch it.

PinkFeldspar (that post where I figured that ethmoid stuff out).

So trazadone needs to go on my med reaction list and I am never taking this again ever in the rest of my whole life. Oh, and it also affects blood glucose. That is always a red flag.

Just driving home the point that this headache is so spectacular that one pill nearly 8 years ago lives on in infamy, and this pill tonight will undoubtedly last the rest of my life. I can feel every nerve in my face (remember, I am the cranial and trigeminal nerve queen from car accident complicated with severe bell's palsy through the years), hurts to move my eyes, every scrap of sinus tissue feels like a grenade went off, my ears are on a flight at 40K feet without me, and my glasses sitting lightly on my nose feels like a 2x4 nailed to my head.

Yeah, this pill isn't helping me sleep.

I also elected earlier to reschedule this surgery on my hand. Now doesn't feel right at all for some reason, partially because I never got a phone call from anyone about my med list (I've always gotten that call for other surgeries in the past), and I suddenly realized I was still taking aspirin and vitamins, and you're supposed to stop those at least 10 days to 2 weeks ahead of the surgery. This whole last year has been crazy for medical staff turnover, and I guess that got lost in some kind of shuffle. There is a weekend number to call, but that person said they don't have the power to do that kind of stuff even though the paper said they did, so this is ridiculous and not inspiring confidence, so I'm thinking wait a bit now for them to figure their s#*t out because my thumb isn't that bad right now anyway.

Pain med isn't even pretending to touch this headache. At this point, nightmares look delightful and I miss them.

Time to get on game, I guess.

:edit: Found literature on trazadone headache at https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1111/j.1440-1819.2011.02276.x#:~:text=Our%20report%20suggests%20that%20trazodone,is%20to%20discontinue%20this%20medication.