masks

Aaaand I never went back to sleep. I have been awake for nearly 5 hours now and it's not even 7 a.m.

Got that from a random wallpaper site. I wouldn't mind having that view in my back yard.

So operation move my dresser was wildly interrupted with the worst back spasms I've had since 2007, and in 2 days it'll be 3 full weeks. Doing better, but I just don't dare. The rain has been a bit more insane this May than previous years, although I've seen the slopes on the sides of my house turn into rivers in the way past. I dunno, just an off kind of year I guess. Super thrilled I'm still breathing with ease compared to previous spring allergy seasons.

You know the whole mask thing, right. I ordered some gaiters from amazon ages ago and they finally alerted me that they may have gotten lost in the mail. The USPS tracking code doesn't work at all. I'm going to have to drive in to my post office and verify that, and then I guess I'll be trying to get my $57 reimbursed.

We got scary me to give us a name. We were like we don't know if she even has a name, ask her what her name is, no you ask her, maybe we could just give her a name, and suddenly a name was in my head and we all just shut up. -oh- I have no idea why that name and how it connects but it oddly seems about right. We're still not talking but the weird dark spot in my head doesn't feel quite as weird anymore.

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Got distracted and left the post hanging.

Medigap part F switches on the 1st, so the $75 increase has been avoided.

I'm not able to get anywhere with the invalid tracking number Amazon had for that gaiters order (tried all the big delivery tracking sites), so I went ahead and emailed for refund. Wonder how many other people never got their face coverings. Bet all the places that make them are still super swamped with back orders. Oh, well, continuing with the homemade out of an old t-shirt mask.

Oddly, the first month of lockdown, NO ONE expected us to wear masks in my state if we didn't want to. We all followed the other guidelines, stayed apart, temps taken, hand sanitizer entering buildings, and I still finished out physical therapy with NO ONE in the building wearing masks. I never got sick.

And then we hit phase one. Suddenly everyone is crazy freaked about wearing masks, despite how rare illness has been in my entire metro and tourist area. Everyone started reopening with these crazy one person in the building at a time stuff, or filling out a formal digital questionnaire and then following up with two completely separate paper questionnaires just for one appointment, plus mask or turned away at the door even with no temp.

Now we are in phase two. Angry people are angry if YOU'RE NOT WEARING YOUR MASK. Angry people are angry if YOU'RE GOING THE WRONG WAY IN AISLES in stores that have been open the entire time. Angry people are angry for the sake of being asshole angry, and it's like dang, what happened to humanity.

And then suddenly the water areas opened up and the happy people all group hugged by the hundreds in the water. My state went viral for happy people being happy to be with each other because ANGRY PEOPLE ARE ANGRY everywhere else.

I mean, seriously.

I know most educated people that I'm friends with have done their due diligence keeping up with mainstream news and complying with what they are told to do, but have they RESEARCHED? Have they asked how the hell and why the fuck and who in the world and where is this going? No, they haven't. And the ones I am aware of being diligent are so closed minded about looking deeper into what is really going on and clinging to the dutiful citizen reacting to fear porn that they don't realize they aren't thinking logically.

Imma spell it out.

I have been a chronic super spoonie my entire adult life. I have life threatening allergies that keep me out of a number of public places. I am so used to living like this that I simply know how to live like this, and I see so many flaws in people being terrified and thinking masks and hand sanitizer and never getting near people is going to save them.

I've had so many trips to ER for heart and allergy stuff that I just avoid anything and everything I don't want sending me there. I don't touch things and touch my face because my face has started swelling and itching so many times reacting to whatever, like if someone had peanut butter residue on their hands and touched a cart handle. Guys, those wipes don't clean off peanut butter residue. It's an oil, not a germ.

I also have severe reactions to dogs. Everyone who brings their dog into a store shopping is threatening my life. Am I angry at them? No, I just change my direction. I don't frown angrily at them with mean eyes. Every day I go to town for years I have managed to deal with my life being on a precipice just being around other people.

So now it's a germ. I can't tell you how hard it is not to get strep or flu or a stomach bug from people you love who never think about *properly* washing their hands after the bathroom and then touching a doorknob with wet hands. I've stopped my own husband so many times from reaching into a cabinet for a dish right after work without washing his hands first. He is endangering me doing that, but does he even think about it? No, because he doesn't have a clue what an anaphylactic reaction really feels like, it's terrifying.

So yes, I understand the fear. Totally. But people who are terrified to breathe the air even with no one around (I have literally seen this so many times lately) are living in a created illusion, a magic box that freezes their brain inside and turns them into compliant sheep who aren't able to think their ways out of a crisis.

If your house caught on fire, would you be freaking out about escaping outside without your mask and then the fire team and half the street standing around watching? Imminent danger vs fear. Think about that one.

I don't mind putting a mask on to enter a building if the owners are terrified and I want their service badly enough. But I refuse to walk down a street or through a parking lot in full mask. Why? I wear a CPAP every night, unobstructed air forcing me to breathe correctly. Wearing a mask completely defeats the purpose of raising my O2 sat. <<-- link, link -->> Hypoxemia is a big deal. That is really important to read. Now ask yourself why the WHO is asking you to get less oxygen for weeks at a time while an entire country goes bankrupt. I personally know only three people this entire time who know of someone who was exposed (not sick) and quarantined, and I haven't yet heard of anyone dying from it near me. Most people I know are being careful, like I am careful every single day for years because of chronic super spoonie and allergies.

We don't need to be angry at each other over masks. That's silly. I wonder how many old people are risking strokes because of masks? Possibly way more than old people who've died of covid.

We all need to start thinking logically. Drop the fear for a few minutes, let go of the idea that you know everything because you're obedient to the news, and just think it through. If someone were purposely depriving you of oxygen, you'd fight, wouldn't you? But if they get you to deprive yourself... Time to start asking questions.

I have been bringing up Agenda 21 for a few years. Depopulation is a big issue in politics. They hide it behind fancy words and make it sound virtuous, but the simple fact is that there has been a plan for many years to continue gradually reducing world populations down for interesting reasons, all of which track back to global elite billion and trillionaires who don't care if your O2 sat is a problem in a mask.

But that's not where I wanted to go with this. I've mostly been noticing we can't see each other smile any more. Or laugh. It's amazing how not seeing someone's mouth and how it moves their face creates an instant wall in our minds. People in masks don't have to smile to customers now. People walking around don't have to smile to each other. Our first instinct in human interaction has been robbed away from us, and now angry people in masks are angry.

Don't let them do that to you.