thoughts

I think my granddad was one of the lightworkers. Of all my grandparents, he stands out as both kind and a timeline changer. His gruffness was probably migraines, heard he suffered from them for years.

We've all suffered in my family. We all go against the grain and stand against tyranny to do what is right for others. People who do that suffer more, years of spiritual and physical attacks to slow us down if we can't be stopped.

People who don't think this is real, ask- Do bad things happen when you have good intentions? Does that make you feel like giving up?

We are all under siege, all slaves, all living under the duress of illusion. Depression grips us almost with cosmic intent, turning everything good we feel inside out.

NESARA
http://intothelight.news/knowledge-base/nesara/

Putting that there for easy reference.

Here you go, this one, too. Other good vids in that channel.

Several people want to argue fear porn with me, determined that NESARA is what's bad. After seeing the trafficking and cannibalism I've seen, I'm wondering how in heaven's name anyone can say NESARA is more evil than raping and eating babies and children.

There is twisted evil in anyone thinking God would warn us against fixing our global ills as the trap we don't want our souls caught in vs raping and eating babies.

Logic escapes them.

THAT is how evil things have become, when people trying to help each other becomes a worse thing than raping and eating babies.

I may be mentally ill, but I'm not stupid, and my mind is free of fear porn and doublethink.

This channel has been interesting lately. Go for the weird, stay for the music.
https://youtu.be/ljB72x6cGeo

I've had a very long day out. Nothing horrible, just long. My state started phase one reopening, and the traffic was more like a Friday before Christmas than a Tuesday in late spring. It was lovely, though. This has been an exceptionally pretty spring. It's like the sky changed or something.

It's also still holding as one of my easiest spring allergy seasons ever. Don't get me wrong, still eating antihistamines like candy, but no steroid of any kind yet, no real suffering. Well, my eyes are very itchy, and I spent April with one eye constantly lubed in ointment, but my eye doctor gave me a $5  coupon for eye allergy drops today and I'm very happy about it. I'd have gotten them weeks earlier, but the clinic was shut down.

This post meeting my new psychiatrist depressive episode is lasting longer than I thought it would. It also seems to have triggered more memories coming out. Funny, I was holding pretty steady all spring till that, contentedly enjoying all the feels being turned off again after years of stress, and now I'm lurking the depths like some king of boggy ground fog. Suddenly in forgetful land again. This morning I literally poured coffee down the sink instead of into a cup and then stupidly wondered what just happened. The forgetfulness is so bad today that it stops me every few steps like my brain falling out over and over.

Still, I successfully ran errands today, so yay.

I didn't hear a single cough in all the hours I was out. Its like people are terrified to cough even a little now.

K, I need to be done with this. Too many of us trying to make paragraphs today.